"Impressionistic and courageous. Mel has found the strength to document her journey from the darkest depths, to the life-saving highs of finding hope and healing. This is a painful, thoughtful and ultimately inspiring book that celebrates Mel's ability to overcome great odds and challenges." - Nick Barkla, Australian Actor and Film maker.

Have you ever felt trapped or lived with that emotion? It's like the very person you know within you melts away each day as hot sun liquefies a glacier. Time seems endless and yet still. Silenced to nothingness. Drifting in fragments. No control. Thoughts are stuck in her mind. She needs to expel outwards. The fear alone stops her. Time may seem silenced, but the days go on and the years gone on without her.
It was going to be the first day of the rest of her life. She stood tall and proud, strong and confident. She loved being there for people and helping them to be the best they can be. She pledged her life to serve her country, then it was all taken. It was strong powerful men that shut her down. This book is Mel's tumultuous journey of working through the emotions, pain and struggle after dealing with abuse whilst serving as the only female chaplain in the Royal Australian Navy.